How 'rich' is Purple Crow's life on disability?
November 15 2019 example. See image.
$71 dollars for food for another 2 weeks is a 'good month'. This means I don't HAVE TO stand in the freezing rain in winter unsheltered for two hours for some food-bank food that's about to expire later the same day.
$7 in 'Royalties' for my music being played on the radio is 'substantial' and 'ultra rare'.
$10 in 'sales' for one album is 'awesome'.
Disability gives me $375 for my 'rent' and the corporation (forced slavery) takes an ADDITIONAL $230 of my FOOD MONEY (from a PWD!) every month (extortion as I have NO CHOICE, other than live on the street, which is 'illegal' (of course) - no one helps and nothing ever changes - crappy old building and I'm told our rent here is 'average' everywhere by the 'bankers' who 'own everything' and run 'everything', of course... the usual suspects).
Perspective: My rent alone is almost 70 percent of my 'total income' (Disability). I get just over $1000 a month for ALL expenses: Rent, power, food, heating, clothing, phone, internet (last two are mandatory to maintain Government accounts to stay alive on Disability as they went 'paperless' a few years ago and even closed down many of their physical offices), 'Renter's insurance' (Mandatory to the corporation I was forced to rent from), medicine, entertainment or even a few beer (so there's even the SMALLEST reason to wake up another day), everything but transport... we get a bus pass for that separately... and it took YEARS to get one!
My bank account goes to almost ZERO every single month. Do you see how $7 in 'Royalties' or that one album sale every 2 months makes me smile a little... although darkly? I live in a dark painful reality where a mere $7 for some 'radio play' actually is something to brag about... thus this post.
Life with PTSD, Social Anxiety, mild OCD and synaesthesia (although the fourth one can be 'fun' sometimes) - All created by my family, society and 'the legal system' over many years of abuse (including court records)! An anti-social hermit's life is not all bad though... but it usually is... mostly due to everyone else bothering me or failing to make life bearable (in other words: NOTHING EVER CHANGES!). Any wonder why I create dark soundscapes? This is not a trend or 'cliche' or 'just for fun because I like it'... it's my life... I can't ever escape it.
I am "Joker". This "Clown world" created me.
Please stop asking me to 'love humans' or 'accept them'... that will NEVER happen! What love I have left is ONLY for myself... the one thing I plan to take 'back home' with me one day as time closes in around me, tighter every day. But hey... I made a whole $7 in 'Royalties' today. How nice is that?! ^^ I'm an 'official' musician once again this year!
By the way... "Entertainment" includes me paying the monthly fee to BROADCAST my radio station into your homes and minds - all 35,000 songs from my years of collecting (and thanks to artists who have DONATED music even more so - seriously, thank-you).